Ok - I need to get the hell out of this house. This situation is definitely no longer working for me - any of it. You know, the job's been pretty cool for the last few years and has given me one truly remarkable experience and subsequent friendship - but I'm getting tired of doing so much work for so little reward. I have to believe I'm capable of more than this or what's the point? I'm also getting really sick of my family, quite frankly. Sick of living with them at any rate. What the hell is with my father these days anyway? Regressing into treating me like a fucking 12 year old. Plus, I'm loving this tendancy to pick an arguement with me and then storm off in a hissy fit in the middle of it whenever I actually make a valid point - then later accuse *me* of being childish. Also getting a bit tired of the girlfriend who finds it not only necessary to constantly point out the obvious to me like I was some sort of idiot but making comments about family members like I was new or something. "Your father does this all the time." Oh really??? Well, fuck - good thing you told me that. It's not like I haven't known him....my entire life or anything.
Would someone please remind me why I thought it was a good idea to move back here from Oakville again? Am I some sort of masochist or do I just block from my memory how difficult my family is to live with?
I now definitey must focus on paying down some of my debt and saving up some money so that I can get out of this house again. Won't be easy considering what I make at the current job and I will likely have to scale back the concert travelling compared to last year but it must be done. *sigh* I have to concentrate on places where I can do some networking to try and land a better job within the music industry and move. If I have my way, by next year perhaps I will be working for True North Records in Toronto. I need to keep gathering serious brownie points with Fearing - he'd make an excellent job reference considering his manager is president of the company. *g*